SOngkran Happy DAY but SAD

Here I was in Songkran celebretion with La Flora Resort& Spa! I paid attation to all my jobs. I was having fun with all guests. But I felt that I was taking andavance from my co-workers. I shouldn't feel this. Even I don't want to tell them, I just can keep it. I am saying I am not taking advantage from them. However, It is not in a greedy way. Here I felt I knew what they wanted just to use me for their own good. It is complecated for what would like to tell poeple. I am just a normal person who is having all kinds of emotions. WHy don't you just taka a look closer to my face and see what I really am being now. It is again I consider myself to leave my workplace for my own sake. I can't hold this feeling anymore. People here don't listen, they only talk about what they need to have done. I am tired. COuld thy just leave me to do my jobs..... HURT Can't heal in a day!